I don't know what's expected from me in the arena of relationships, but I can't seem to catch a break.
I always have something to prove, even when I don't.
I thought I'd be better off without him, cutting him off, completely cold turkey just no more...but something inside me says not to give up, not to let go. I have no problem giving up on those who have given up on me, but this time it's different and that kills me. I'm supposed to be FIERCE. Independent. Crazy/beautiful. Smart.
I think alienating this guy was the biggest mistake of my life. Yeah, I'm supposed to be 21 and invincible and over that kind of shit in like, HIGH school.
So much for MFEO.
I miss that stupid ache.
Fuck. I gotta mend bridges.
About Me
- Xlynn
- I live my life by song lyrics, have a chronic/terminal case of smartassitis and and currently taking medication to combat a particularly hearty strain of Don'tgiveafuck syndrome. I do the 22k in april to raise money for research. I appreciate your prayers. I'm also a sarcastic, habitual liar. ...sometimes. You will be my new best friend if you can tell me exactly what the fuck Paul Simon and Julio Were doing down by the schoolyard, the exact location of Carmen Sandiego, and the real words to "Blinded By The Lights" (revved up like a deuce, you know, a roller in the night?). I will date you if you can name 3 Green Day albums that aren't American Idiot. I'm a handful but my friends love me. good luck!
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