It's a cold day down here in hell, and its a long way up there to heaven...

but its okay, 'cause we're singing with the angels.

My unofficial Detroit birthday celebration begins this evening. Its mostly drinking and some dancing in a pretty dress.

...and I'm nervous. No idea as to why, but I'm wake up while its still dark out and fruitlessly attempt to sleep some more nervous.

Lord only knows why, but I have an idea.

I think its because I'm paranoid, but really all of this is my own doing. Matt's going to be in town, so of course he's coming out. I invited Heather (his ex that I'm friends with) and her bf too. Its been like 3, maybe 4 years since they've seen each other, and they promised to play nice, but in the back of my head, my low self esteem voice is all loud and obnoxious. She (only a girl could be this irrational and mean, so of course this voice is female) brings up the hypothetical scenario of what if he sees her and falls in love with her all over again? And then let's multiply this feeling of dread by self loathing and overall fatness for cheating on my diet yesterday, and I guess I figured out why I couldn't sleep.

Holy run ons batman.

I also had cramps this morning, and I hope they are PMS cramps and not bleeding from the crotch in the next 48 hours cramps.

but in other news, I have music obsessions. My latest audio loves:

1. "Lovegame" - Lady Gaga
2. "Paparazzi" - Lady Gaga
3. "Carby" - Discovery (f/ Ezra Konig from Vampire Weekend)
4. "If U Seek Amy" - Britney Spears
5. "I Wish I Knew Natalie Portman" - K-OS
6. "Many Moons" - Janelle Monae
7. "You're a jerk" - New Boyz
8. "Its OK, But Just This Once" - Gym Class Heroes
9. "Harder Better Faster Stonger (Neptunes Remix)" - Daft Punk
10. "Make Her Say" (aka "I Poke Her Face") - Kid Cudi, Kanye West, Common
11. "D.O.A. (Death of Auto-tune)" - Jay-Z
12. "Seven Nation Army" - Nostalgia 77
13. "Who's That Girl?"/"Qui Est Cette Fille?" - Robyn/Yelle
14. "Great DJ" (Calvin Harris remix) - The Ting Tings
15. "The Resolution" - Jack's Mannequin

Ask me about the kitchen-1990s link.

Maybe its the lack of food that makes me crazy.